There are mixed emotions as I continue to live with the trauma of the Manchester abuse against my 23 year old body by Keith Gladdis and his wife Caroline Gidman (Gladdis).

On one hand, I am grateful for the few years of peace and privacy.

I am grateful for all the people and institutions who helped, who were a light in the darkness against his hatred and evil.

I am grateful for the men (real men) who protected me against the evil of his sneaky plan to destroy me.

Wicked sneaky little Keith and his wife Caroline wanted to work with their media colleagues to have any friends of mine “tracked down and punished and humilated” for protecting me, but they stood their ground.

Each day, I drink my tea, and I am glad to have some freedom the howling mob the abusive, creepy little sex monster Keith wanted directed against me.

I breathe, and I am glad that I am contemplating making life decisions on my own terms.

On the other hand, trauma and abuse never leaves you. Gladdis’s abuse reinforced the hatred directed against me by his autistic boss, editor Paul Dacre.

This is what I learned from speaking out about my abuse.

“YOU WILL BE ALONE WHEN SPEAKING OUT AGAINST ABUSE. YOU’LL HAVE TO FACE REALITY AND THE DARKEST SIDE OF HUMANITY“

The loneliness of living with the abuse of monsters like Keith Gladdis was only reinforced when I spoke out about it.

The wicked mob that he had rasied (evil Malaysians) essentially continued to demand that I “explain myself” and ignored anything else I said. They essentially combed anything I said looking for MY personal details and refused to acknowledge me speaking out against Keith’s violation of my naked 23 year old body.

Malayisans didn’t want me to live in peace and privacy. They wanted sex monsters like Keith Gladdis to continue writing about me so they could control me.

I received some support (from other people)

But as soon as I spoke out about what was actually happening to me stupid Malaysians refused to listen.

It really emotionally hurt. It still does.

I’m glad I’ve faced reality.

I’m glad I’ve learned what a disgusting, stupid, unsupportive, racist, self-loathing, controlling nation the Malaysian people are

They preferred to stalk and troll and criticise a non-white woman than even LISTEN to anything negative about a white man.

I have never lived in Malaysia, but I now understand they actually GIVE HIGH PAID JOBS to random white backpackers with dodgy backgrounds and no qualifications

Saya tidak pernah tinggal di Malaysia, tetapi saya kini faham bahawa mereka sebenarnya MEMBERIKAN PEKERJAAN BERGAJI TINGGI kepada backpacker putih rawak dengan latar belakang yang cerdik dan tiada kelayakan

Malaysians ask brown women like me to “Study hard and give your whole life and privacy and work for free for our stupid backwards country”.

Mereka meminta wanita coklat seperti saya untuk "Belajar bersungguh-sungguh dan berikan seluruh hidup dan privasi anda dan bekerja secara percuma untuk negara kita yang bodoh".

The white-worshipping culture, in which Malaysia protects and worships white perverts like Keith Gladdis whilst attacking women like me is probably one the reasons they haven’t progressed.

Budaya pemujaan kulit putih, di mana Malaysia melindungi dan menyembah orang kulit putih yang menyeleweng seperti Keith Gladdis sambil menyerang wanita seperti saya mungkin merupakan salah satu sebab mereka tidak maju.

ABUSE AGAINST ASIAN WOMEN IS STRUCTURAL AND ABOUT MONEY AND POWER – THE ABUSE IS AS WE AREN’T “MAKING PROFIT FOR OTHER PEOPLE“

As I think about having (largely) done what I’ve wanted intellectually, free from the controlling beasts of the media and the mob of vermin they launched against me, I learned something new.

I always knew the media was full of hatred and bullies, and as I got older I learned more about their tactics.

As someone who wasn’t actually that involved with universities, I didn’t realise how much universities were connected with the media.

I’ve learned more recently and “wised up”

A lot of universities have journalists as staff and feed stories to them to meet their needs.

I was meant to be part of a nasty PR scheme.

Essentially, universities wanted gullible international students (who can’t speak English) to think an Asian woman was going to becomne a “genius scientist” with a great worldwide reputation who had a lucrative career.

The reality would be I would be forced to be a punchbag and a workhorse in a failed industry, doing tacky photoshoots to sell debt to international students.

Non-white people at UK Universities are treated like shit, but asked to appear in PR to sell courses to international students.

At Rose Bruford College, Professor Kathleen Dacre, wife of racist media man Paul Dacre, runs adverts to recuit international students (paying high fees) as her husband writes articles saying how international students are a drain and unwelcome.

British education is a pyramid or Ponzi scheme.

Unless you are already rich, UK universities are not worth it in terms of work opportunities.

I was too interested in peace and relaxing and self-care (sports, travel, military girlfriend :-p..) to ever get 100% involved in the academic scene.

Looking back, I’m very glad I NEVER made that commitment.

If I did study it was mainly remote working or part-time and “secretly” away from the media vermin. The abusive media wanted to “shame” me into going back into the university system and doing photoshoots there to “continue the story”.

Racist behaviour and weird behaviour at universities is rife. Non-white students are told to get into lots of debt to spend time with white autistic staff.

The main people you meet at universities now are either from very poor countries (and looking to emigrate as they are desperate) or very autistic, odd people (My parents spent a lot of time obsessed with universities as they were mentally unwell and didn’t fit in anywhere else).

I am glad I got the advantage and intellectual challenge of some education and research in a topic I was interested in

But I certainly would not advise international students or young people of colour to go to UK universities unless they’re at a safe distance, or rich, and have very definite plans.

Go remote or learn online and set up a business. Go to your local university and save money.

Old white university professors see young international students as “cash cows” and “free labour”.

Do your thing off campus. Let racist university staff and their media friends go broke. Give them their hatred back.

As I wasn’t appearing in photoshoots and “selling stories promoting universities”, I was seen as stealing the money and fees and PR the universities wanted.

Looking forward (retirement hopefully, and content too!) the next stage of abuse for the racist media will be stalking me and running hate-filled articles claiming I am “disappointed” and have “failed my potential” by not being linked to a University and having an “academic career”

(even though I have NEVER had that goal – it’s all the lies of media bullies to turn my life into a reality show).

As I’m not promoting international students getting into debt, I am seen as ruining the commercial goals of all the journalists and their friends who are old, greedy, autistic, white university staff.

I am so glad that I have had the confidence and contributed my voice (in a small way) to dealing with the vermin and bullies of the media like Keith Gladdis.

It might be too late for me to be spared from his abuse, but I hope other young Asian women are safe from him.

I cannot change the past.

But I send compasssion back to my weeping, abused 23 year old self by continuing to warn other non-white women about the monster Keith Gladdis and his creepy wife.

I wonder if I will also start contributing my voice to getting universities to lose some fees? Protect more Asian women.

“The best defence is good offence”

HOW DO I FEEL ABOUT SPEAKING OUT ABOUT MY SEX ABUSE

In the words of Martin Luther:

“Here I stand. I can do no other”.

Peace out!

Sufiah Yusof 2026 🙂